I Am The Breeze

As of recently, I have been waaaay depressed. I had to beg my friends and family to loan me $$$ for a Greyhound ticket to New Jersey. While in New Jersey, I had to go see my dad who is in a hospice care center. It was the hardest thing to see. My pops laying there helpless, just waiting to go. Not only did I have to see this, I had to meet my brother that I haven’t ever met in my entire life. There is so much more to this all….just thought I’d vent. SOmetimes I just need to get shit off my chest. <3

It takes a lot of strength to hold on,

but sometimes it takes much more strength to just let go and move on.

My feelings exactly. :/

This is by far the worst day I’ve had in a very long time. I woke up and started rushing to find a way out to my dad, who is in hospice care right now.

He doesn’t have very long….and I am freaking out.Worried I won’t get there in time, and feeling like a big piece of SHIT! :(

This song mademe calm down though…….so here you go…. <3

—Hold this HEART when I go. Sing my song when I go.

Sing it LOUD when I go. Sing it proud when I go.

Some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly -

BUT I KNOW THAT I’LL BE YEARNING TO FLY! WHEN MYYYY, WHEN MYYY, WHEN MY SOUL TAKES LEAVE OF THIS WORLD. When I leave this flesh and these bones-

OH, I SWEAR TO YOU THAT YOU WON’T HAVE TO GO ALONE!

Hold this heart when I goooo. Sing my song when I go.

Sing it loud when I go. Sing it proud when I go.

Some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly!

The first time my heart collided with yours, you know I felt the ocean tickle the Earth’s sandy shores. But changes come and we -oh no,we can’t, we can’t stop them.

But I hold these MEMORIES - And I will NEEEVVVER drop them!

And I’ll watch over you - I’ll watch over you.

Hope my care will cover you, just like the morning dew. I’ll watch over you, I’ll watch over you. Hope my care will cover you just like the morning dew. HMM HMM HMMM - HMM HMM HMMMM!

Hold this heart when i go. Sing my song when i go. Sing it LOUD when i go. Sing it proud when i do.

Some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly, and some people are learnin to die and some people are yearning to fly! But I know that I’ll be yearning to FLYYY!

Oh the thought of DEATH has yet to make me afraid, cause I will march right off of this world into the next, like its a grand parade! But if you feel lonely just like you want to run and hide, then I’ll wrap my wings around you and give you strength. And I won’t leave your sight. And I’ll watch over you, I’ll watch over you.

Hope my care will cover you just like the morning dew. I’ll watch over you, I’ll watch over you. You know I’d love to get to Heaven, you know I’d love to see the view. But first I think I’ll stay and watch over you. OH I’LL WATCH OVER YOU, I’ll watch over you. HMM HMM HMMMM! HMM HMM HMMMM!—

Today is an awful day so far, at least that’s how I see it.

I missed my paper route cause I didn’t have gas, my dad isn’t going to be around much longer [on hospice care], and I hve no money for a ticket to see him one last time. I’m losing my mind. So much going on.

I have basically been tumblin around all mornin, trying to keep entertained.

What have youuu got to show me? :]

<3

To prove that love is not about how long you’ve been together or how close/happy you were, you look at how many times you’ve argued and reconciled, and found differences but still chose to be with each other.